So my SIL is pregnant again. (I don’t remember if I mentioned this or not). This will be her third child. Everytime I see her she asks if I’m pregnant yet. Besides wanting a niece or nephew I think she just wants someone to be pregnant with. I realized the other day that during both of her previous pregnancies she had friends that were pregnant at the same time. While part of me thinks it will be great to have someone to commisurate with, part of me wants to be selfish and have all of the attention.
Enter BIL. We just found out that my BIL’s girlfriend is pregnant too. Due exactly a month after my SIL. While I am slightly concerned, I’m actually pretty happy and excited for them. I never thought about my BIL having a baby now, much less before me. He joked that we better hurry up so we can have Novemeber, December, and January babies.
That being said, what kind of pressure does that put on me? I feel like I’m the last one to the party. I think I’m over the part of not being the center of attention (I will be with my family since it will be the first grandchild for my parents). I’m from a small family so I think it will be nice for our kids to have similarly aged cousins to be friends with. I didn’t have that. I have one first cousin. Yes, you read that right. One. He is seven years younger than me and they moved around a lot when we were kids so I didn’t see him much. T, on the other hand, has 22. Or was it 44? We counted once.
But what does that mean for me? Of course it doesn’t have to happen right away. I waited this long for a reason. What if now I’m ready and it doesn’t happen right away? Or course if I think like that it certainly won’t happen. But as the saying goes, things come in threes. But even if it doesn’t, everything will work out the way it’s supposed to.